Hansa Days 3 & 4

Yesterday my doc did a presentation on bug bites during lunch. It should be on YouTube somewhere. It's called "Surviving Summer". It was really good. It was actually beautiful weather yesterday so I spent some time outside enjoying the scenery. I had a moment of breathing well while I was out there but it didn't last long. I got some new tinctures and did the same therapies as the previous day.

Today my doc found things I never even told him about. He found my floating rib, my bulging L5, and told me that the kind of injury I have in my SI joint can actually cause Dysautonomia. There's something going on with my cerebral spinal fluid, too. I don't have CSF insufficiency like I suspected, but that is a good thing! He worked on my sacrotuberois ligament and had me lift my legs. Then he worked on the base of my skull, after which I had VERY strange tingly sensation on my scalp but it went away. I love how he addresses EVERYTHING! He validates so much of my research and explains everything so perfectly. It's been so enlightening to work with him and I'm so glad they have patients see their doctors every day for an hour for two weeks. It's just brilliant.

Today, I did the Bemer therapy, had electrolytes, green juice, lymph massage, oxygen frequency therapy on my sternum, light therapy on my liver and spleen, another Bemer, and far infrared sauna. 

I still have some new focus from brainwave but it kinda comes and goes. My pain was worse today but the weather was bad. I didn't sleep very well or very long either. 

I look forward to tomorrow. 

Hansa Day 2

Today I did the Bemer chair and then met with the doc where he found I have ammonia toxicity. So he made me a tincture for it, closed my Ileocecal valve, pulled down my hiatal hernia, and tested me for H Pylori which came up positive. I've had previous tests for that but I guess it was missed.

After the doc, I did the light therapy, had a 1hr full body massage, did the sauna, did oxygen therapy, and did the Bemer again. Oh, I also stood on a vibrating plate thing which I did NOT like. 

I love the mineral water, green juices, and electrolyte drinks they have around the facility. I love the new people I've met, too.

My husband and son have been with me the past 10 days but they leave tomorrow. My mom will be flying in tomorrow though to stay with me for the rest of the time.

I'm having a hard time breathing today. Not sure if it's the ginger bitters the doc gave me for my stomach or what. I've been having weird episodes, too. I've had moments of being ok and moments that just hit me and I am not ok. It's so black and white. I'm so sick of the episodes and I don't know what they are or what to do about them!

Hopefully something can be done in the next week and a half.

First Official Day at Hansa

Today I came into the Hansa Center, registered, got a gift bag, put my stuff in a cubby, and then had some sort of weird thermal test where they used a thermometer thing on different points on my upper body to see how my body regulates? It's a little hard to explain and I'm not sure how it works. 

After my thermal scan, which I believe is called a "CRT", I was able to meet Dr. Streit, who has been assigned to me for the two weeks I'll be here. I get to meet with him every day for an hour, which I think is just absolutely brilliant. To be honest, I was hoping I would get him as my doctor, and I don't really know why. There was a 25% chance I would get him 'cause there's 4 working doctors in the facility. They really all seem wonderful, but I'm not sure if I knew he was going to be my doctor or what. He's really cool, though. He went over my CRT results, and LISTENED to me. Like, he ACTUALLY listened to me. He was not concerned with his own doctor ego and his own ideas like I've experienced with others. Rather, he was concerned with my explanation of my symptoms. It's been embarrassing and exhausting to explain 115 symptoms everywhere from my teeth to my toes, but he is a "whole body" doctor and understands everything inside and out. He understands how everything is connected, and never once did he think I was weird. I've been called unusual for so long. He welcomes the unusual, which was both a relief and a breath of fresh air.

After talking with the doc, we had a lunch break, and then I came back and started my therapies. The first one......I don't know what it was but I laid in a chair and had an oxygen tube, and some weird things on my clavicles and shoulder blades. The next treatment was.........light therapy? I had headphones on and they had a light on my chest and back. Then I sat in another chair that was called a beamer? I don't know what that was. But then I sat in a REALLY fancy infrared sauna and I know exactly what that is! I was done mid-afternoon and came back to the hotel and took an "almost" nap. 

Below is a picture of what my tests have determined. They seem to be accurate. Dr Streit even picked up on things that I didn't tell him, that I wasn't tested for, and that I didn't put on any paperwork. There were a few things like that which, to me, proves that this kind of alternative medicine is legit. 

There are people from all over the world at this center. I heard several different accents. People from different countries. I feel blessed to be here. I've read of so many people who wish they could come here and I AM here. I'm very fortunate. I am really hopeful and even almost excited to see what I can accomplish here. I'm not usually excited but things seem promising.

Brainwave Complete

So I did all my brainwave sessions. Each were the same it seemed, but I did not handle them all the same. Sometimes I was fine, sometimes I was stuck between sleep and awake, sometimes I would hallucinate, sometimes I would feel claustrophobic, etc. I was almost considering discontinuing the sessions because I was having such a hard time, but I pushed through. On the last day, I prepared to push through my last session, but my tech said I actually did not even need my final session because my brain was balanced! They said they rarely see that happen so fast but I was lucky. So I was able to do my exit interview and was sent on my way. 

Over the weekend I was experiencing EXTREME dizziness, if that's even the right word. I stayed in bed for so long. Way longer than I normally do. It was so horrible and bizarre. Once the weekend passed I seemed to slowly be getting a little better. I think my focus is a little better. I've been meeting a lot of new people and have been able to have conversations without wigging out. It comes and goes.

I think my sleep is ok. I went off my spec of 2mg of Ambien and have not needed it. My dreams are a little too vivid but maybe that will resolve. My tech says the brain will settle over the next few weeks so I'll just have to see if I notice any more positive changes along the way. 

Brainwave Optimization Day 1

I've arrived at the Hansa Center. Today I started Brainwave Optimization and it was like hypnotism of torture. I have to be hooked up to electrodes and have weird tunes, or notes, or chords or whatever you want to call them in my ears to mimic my brainwaves for 1.5hrs twice a day. I'm not sure why I was wigging out and feeling so uncomfortable. I had bizarre symptoms like Ascension and full body aches and my skin felt invisible. Of course, I am unusual, and this is a strange reaction, but I think the fact that my neck and stomach had to hold still for so long played a big part. I'm also still motion sickness from traveling here, and sleep deprived.

Below is a chart that shows my parasympathetic nervous system (on the left) and my sympathetic nervous system (on the right). I'm not sure which lobe this is but clearly I'm stuck in fight or flight. I think I could physically feel my brain refusing to go to the left. It was NOT fun. I felt like a skeleton sitting in an electric chair.

I will try to eat less and drink more and relax tomorrow as I think that may have played a role in how I was reacting. 

On two positive notes, my technician is a gem in every sense of the word, and I got to meet THE Dr Jernigan unexpectedly. My tech must have told him I was NOT doing well and he kindly peeked in. I must say, this human being gives off a STRONG, humble, wise, powerful first impression. I felt I was in the presence of a true healer whose spirit is VERY good. 

I pray tomorrow I will not react so horrifically. I don't want anyone else to feel deterred by my reaction to this because, as usual, I do NOT respond normally to things. This has helped many people.

I was supposed to rest and nap but my body won't let me nap 'cause I feel like I can't breath. My heart and lungs and stomach hate me, and so does the severe Spring weather here.

Waiting Game

Well, I've had five NUCCA treatments. According to new X-RAYS, progress has been made, however, I FELL WORSE! Yet I cannot decide which symptoms are due to the NUCCA and what is due to low iron, full moon, GERD, horrible weather, and my cycle. I can normally suck it up but I had a couple days where I totally lost it. My worst symptom has something to do with my diaphragm. It's like I can't exhale fully. It feels like suffocation, but in reverse. My breathing sounds and looks normal, yet I feel like I don't have oxygen or I'm hyperventilating or something. My face and arms have gone tingly, I have "episodes" that I still can't explain, and the trauma of feeling like I'm suffocating is REALLY taking a toll on me. My worst symptoms seem to come mid morning? I wake up and deal with my crazy nervous system, try to get up and get going, eat, and then I usually crash. Around 11am?

I'm trying to get into my family doc today to check my iron. I have been SO nauseated, which I do attribute to NUCCA and that's normal, but it's making taking iron next to impossible. At first I thought I was having iron overload. It's such a balancing act. You can't have too little and you can't have too less.

So, I'm waiting for that, and am waiting to travel to The Hansa Center. I will be there two weeks from today. I seriously am concerned something horrible will happen on the car ride there. It's so far away! 16 hours from me! I don't want to fly there. I will be flying back, though. It's a whole lot of "middle of nowhere" between Utah and Kansas. I pray they can help me. This will be the fifth clinic I'll have been treated at. I will be blogging as much of my experience there as I possibly can. I will try to blog daily but I can't promise anything.

I'm learning a level of faith and patience that I've never even touched. It feels next to impossible to attain, yet I have no choice.

Whatever we go through in life, no matter how miserably we keep failing, we MUST keep trying. Sometimes I think the whole point of trials is to sometimes JUST keep trying.

At this point I feel like I'm just trying to remain conscious.

Biological Dentist

I really should not have gone to have 3 hours of torturous dental exams after being in the hospital the previous day having a torturous endoscopy. While this is all way to much trauma in 48hrs, the dentist had a cancellation and I wanted to just get it over with.

The drive up was weird. I was a strange kind of dizzy. My mom has to drive me everywhere for my own safety and for the safety of others. I'm usually dizzy in the car, but this was weird. Maybe leftover anesthesia? It was alarming Not sure if I should have had lunch right before my appointment but I did.

I had not been to the dentist in probably 5 years. I AVOID going because I have some sort of strange claustrophobia of the mouth that I cannot explain. However, in my quest to pursue all avenues of health, I figured I had better get my teeth checked. I have read many things regarding full body health and it's relation to the teeth. I also wanted to go to a biological dentist because they acknowledge chronic illness, namely Lyme.

First, I have to say I was assigned the sweetest, calmest, most wonderful dental assistant without whom I would not have survived the complete and utter torture of the exams. Now, I am NOT fluent in dental jargon, so bear with me as I try to describe what happened using simple descriptions.

So, it's all kind of a blur, but I had my teeth "tested" with a freezing Q-tip placed on each tooth to make sure they were alive? My front teeth are by far the most sensitive. They check my blood pressure on my calf to see how I am absorbing calcium. They also checked my blood pressure laying down AND standing up which I LOVED! They took pictures with a camera, did mold tray things to get an imprint which I swear I was gonna suffocate and die from. I coughed and gagged and panicked at one point. It was so embarrassing but we were finally able to get one while the assistant tapped on my temples. It was a strange kind of distraction to keep me from gagging. Then I went and got pictures taken for my posture, stood in the middle of a rotating space-like machine that I am assuming was a cavitation scanner, and had X-rays which was awful. A jagged, uncomfortable device had to be in my mouth for each picture and it felt like a chain link fence was being shoved down my throat. The assistant put salt on my tongue to help me from coughing and choking and it seemed tow work. I had a nutritional scan from a little space egg looking device, and probably other things happened but I can't remember. Probably 'cause I blocked everything out.

So after all the trauma, I finally met the dentist. He asked me what brought him to the office and boy did I have a response. He internalized everything and we seemed to be on the same page. I asked him about my jaw, my subluxation of my atlas, my dizziness, why my tongue is purple and has teeth indentations around it, why my lips are purple, why my stomach lining is destroyed, and why my nervous system is on the fritz. He suggested a liver cleanse. He tested a liver pressure point on my hand and it HURT, which he says means my liver is backed up. He says my lymphatic system is backed up like sewage, and it's affected my lips and tongue. He told me to take betonite clay and apple cider vinegar for my stomach. He pointed a laser through all my teeth and read numbers to the assistant which I didn't understand. He says the need to floss which I admit I do not do. It's too hard with permanent retainers on top AND bottom. I told him I had two wisdom teeth pulled over a decade ago, too. Oh, and he said my adrenals are having a hard time. They work by themselves I guess 'cause I've had them checked, but maybe my atlas is affecting them. My jaw is also weird. It was strange to not understand a lot there. I'm fairly knowledgable in natural medicine and my conditions, but I don't know squat about dental. ESPECIALLY these high tech, top of the line tests.

So, I have to wait TWO MONTHS FOR MY EXAM RESULTS! This dentist is the best of the best, very sought after, and very overbooked. Their office is beautiful, their staff is pristine, and even though I am a WUSS, they took good care of me. I would recommend this place to anybody. I like how they focus on the whole body, and use natural medicine in conjunction with VERY modern technology.

I don't think my results will be pretty, but that's why I went.

So all of this happened yesterday. Today has been awful. My dizziness is worse. My stomach is worse. My sleeping is worse. My "death" feeling episodes are worse. I really wish I could describe them. I feel like it stems from my stomach and/or my spine pressing on something. I still think it's my vagus nerve. I'm hoping that will be looked into further at the Hansa Center.

Until then, hopefully the PTSD will subside from this week.